I'm finally writing again..... it has been way too long since I last posted. I can't even justify my absence, except to say I have been overwhelmed with school. I'm probably writing to no one, I would have stopped checking out this blog long ago, but here goes anyway. I have almost completed my first year home schooling. You would think I would feel accomplished, but quite the opposite, I'm constantly questioning whether or not I have done a good job. Will I ever stop being so hard on myself? I think what adds to my frustration is a 13 year old who is constantly letting me know that she wants to go back to school. Am I the only one whose expectations get them into trouble? I had this idea in my mind what home school would be like, that my kids would love it as much as I did. For the first half of the year it was going well, and now it seems we are all ready for it to end. The question is will I do this again next year, and I honestly don't know. I'm ready to be just their mom, instead of playing the double role of parent/teacher. Can kids who have been in school all their life enjoy being home schooled????
Enough about school, I will talk about my quest to find fun Julie. My New Year's resolution was to become fun once again (I think I was fun at one point in my life... long ago). I have been noticing that I have angry wrinkles; do you know how long you have to be angry to actually get permanent frown lines? I'm not sure, but if I were to guess it would be WAY TOO LONG! So far, fun Julie hasn't surfaced, but I, acting on faith, am still searching for her. I imagine her to be young and wistful, full of energy and grace. Quick with a joke or a smile she brightens any room she enters. Children love her, friends want to emulate her, her husband can't wait to get home; to put it plainly she is the life of the party. I know that she exists, not that I have met her, but I have imagined her and let me tell you when she finally emerges you will want to meet her. I will post the next glimpse I get of her.
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I'm still reading.
and I know fun Julie! =)
I too, met fun Julie during my visit to Modesto. And I can't wait for her to come visit me in Canada. You should post that pic from my icamera-that was fun Jules!
I'm still reading, too, and I already thought you were fun!! - angela
It's good to have you back to blogging sweet lady. I am reading these backwards so I already saw the last sighting of fun Julie.
I relate! I know what you mean about the person you see in your mind, the fun, whimsical, graceful, energetic, the life of the party kind of girl you picture but she doesn't seem to exist in real life. She's in there but doesn't come out often. That, my sweet lady is because we have task oriented personalities. I have found it helpful to tell people how wonderfully fun, whimsical, graceful, energetic, etc. I am. Otherwise they would never know. That's why a task oriented personality has to put fun into their schedule otherwise it won't happen. Many would say schedule fun? Isn't that odd but those people are the sangrins of the world where fun follows them around. We (you and I) have to schedule it to happen. Everyday schedule some fun time. Tell your family you've scheduled the next half hour for just fun. Put on music and have a dance off. Have a laugh off. See who can laugh the loudest, the silliest, the longest. Take a walk and look for stuff like a scavenger hunt. Tell them we're looking for a lady bug, or a red leaf (in summer that's hard) or a lizard, stuff like that. Take a picnic to that little park by your house. Have everyone make their own sandwich and head out to the park. Once there throw a frisbee or better yet have the mini olympics with some silly relays. Get some newspapers and have everyone make a boat then float the boats in the pool to see whose is most water worthy. You can do a race with the boats. Put the boats in on one side and make waves to get your boat to the other side. First boat there wins or first boat still upright and close wins. These are all things to do with the family. When you're out with others remember to smile. Smiling gives the impression of being a fun person and it eases those frown lines you mentioned. I could go on and on but suffice it to say don't be serious all the time, lighten up, be happy. What's that saying Cuma ma tada? When you're feeling overly serious remember these words of wisdom from your Sweet Momma
you mama's a wise woman jules!
lines or no...
you're beautifu!
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